Last week I started writing a blog post about the winding path that lead me away from the intuitive & medium work that I love so much, what lead me back and what’s transpired in between. I thought it would be relatively easy, since I usually have no trouble writing and there is definitely no lack of things to say! But returning to where I began has been such an emotional journey that, for the first time in my life, I’m finding myself at a loss for words and struggling to explain some very emotional stages I’ve gone through over the last few years. I had hoped to have that blog post finished for this week, but my heart and mind apparently have differing ideas! I’m still working on it though, so at some point in the hopefully-not-too-distant-future you can expect to read all of the juicy details!
In the meantime, I thought I’d touch on some of my thoughts in returning to my passion work and finding my way once again…
I’m very tired from all of the work I’ve done the past couple of weeks to let my former clients know that I’m back to this work, so I’m going to keep this short…But I just wanted to share how happy I am and how amazing it is to follow your passions. I love my work and always have, but to be honest, I’d forgotten just how much for a little while. In fact, I’ve been so at peace with my decision that this afternoon I couldn’t wait to get to my readings!
It’s interesting the twisting paths that life leads us down… If I hadn’t been faced with the physical challenges I was that forced me to stop doing intuitive work, I probably would have continued down the same path forever, focusing on the things that had nothing to do with what I love most about my work: being of service to others. At the time I was doing a lot of media, including radio shows (which I really enjoyed!) and television (which I really didn’t enjoy!) and I let it distract me from what was really important to me; I’m convinced that the stress from following a path I didn’t love (media appearances), but that I thought I was supposed to love and supposed to be following contributed greatly to the development of the illnesses that caused me to leave the work that I do love.
I understand why I was put in the situation I was though – I was challenged to grow stronger…Strong enough to decide not to become focused on the ego boost that comes from media attention and leave when it overshadowed my true calling. I’m thankful for my experiences in the spotlight, even if I didn’t especially enjoy them at the time; doing them gave me a chance to hone my skills and get to know myself and realize that I’m more courageous than I would have thought I was… But everything in me knows that those lessons are done and there’s no more that I can gain by continuing down that road; I want a simple life. This is one of the most difficult parts of leaving any relationship or situation: knowing when it’s time to go. I can’t say that it’s not scary, but I have faith that any venture taken with the earnest desire to help others and to grow will be supported and nurtured by God, my guides and my loved ones on the other side.
I am thankful for the support of all of my wonderful clients; one of whom said something years ago when I first started my independent business that has always stayed with me, all these years later: She said that she was so happy to see me spreading my wings…That was a comforting thought…I AM like a baby bird taking off from the nest…AGAIN. And like a little birdy I’ll have the wind beneath me to propel me forward, even when the going gets scary.
If you’re one of my clients who has returned to take this journey with me, you are one of my blessings and I am so grateful to and for you. I hope we have a long and amazing road to walk together!